Fear or faith?

“God literally scared me back into church.” So said a man last night. He was trying to ‘witness’ to me, I’m sure. After all, I left the church he now attends, and that church believes people who leave are “backslidden” and lost. He was verbally abusive to me before I left due to a delusion he had about my future (he believed God promised him I’d marry him) but I stood there feeling almost sorry for him, even though seeing him made my skin crawl.

He told me how he’d lost two toes and almost lost his leg (unmedicated, uncontrolled diabetes) and had been without work for a year and a half. And explained that this was God “scaring him back to church”. Nothing about God drawing him to Himself. Nothing about God’s love. Just fear. To me that is a very sad state to be in.

I live for God in faith, not fear. If I only served God because I was afraid of what He’d do to me if I didn’t, what sort of relationship would I have with Him? Where would be the trust, love, hope, peace and joy that the Bible talks about in reference to following Jesus? And what happens when those who live for God in fear find themselves in a difficult situation in spite of going to church and professing Christianity?

At one time, I went to church regularly in fear. But I can’t ‘live for God’ in fear, and my heart breaks for those who think they are. My life, really living, comes through faith and through grace, through accepting all that Jesus did for me… in love.


About thrugracealone

I'm a country girl raised city. I prefer open windows to AC, love a good thunderstorm, and enjoy hearing the owls and seeing lightning bugs. A bit old-fashioned, maybe, I can recognize many trees by name, resent elms and weeds, wish for a large garden and canning skills, and hope someday to downsize and get a few acres in the country. I am blessed with a terrific church, a good job, a sturdy house, two cats and a yard full of strawberries and mulberries in the right season. Some of my other favorite things to do are spoiling nieces and nephews, reading, swimming, biking, long walks, and blogging, of course. One of my favorite stories is creation. My abbreviated version goes like this: 1In the beginning God created the heavens and the earth. 2Now the earth wasa formless and empty, darkness was over the surface of the deep, and the Spirit of God was hovering over the waters... And God moved... And God said... And it was very good. If God can speak to darkness, to an earth without form and void, and make something like this that we see everyday, and make it very good (and it was even better before the Fall!), He will surely make something wonderful out of the dark, void situations I sometimes find myself in. He has, and it's been very good. Two top posts: Can a Person Lose their Salvation? http://wp.me/p1CY5z-1R Baptism! http://wp.me/s1CY5z-baptism

Posted on August 8, 2011, in Christianity. Bookmark the permalink. 1 Comment.

  1. A Living Christian

    I totally agree. Going to church should never be due to fear. I’m glad you got out of that harmful situation. *hug*

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