Reactions to unreason
I know, the title doesn’t make much sense. I realized something today, though. I’ve been reducing and downsizing for about a year now. It feels good. Today it dawned on me why I might be doing so, though, and that was weird.
For a very long time I was part of a group that emphasized what a person owned. If you had a nice house or car you were ‘blessed’ with it. If you had a lot of nice clothes, it was obvious that you were successful and therefore ‘blessed’, too. I never really felt like most of those things were necessarily blessings though. Jesus was surely blessed, but He said he didn’t even have a place to lay his head. To some people, just having something to eat is a blessing. What we have and what we are ‘blessed with’ is really more perspective than actual blessing.
What is a blessing, really? To me, it isn’t a bigger house or a nicer car… those ‘blessings’ come with taxes, insurance, and payments that sure don’t seem like blessings to me, at least. More stuff brings me more stress, not ‘blessing’. To me, being blessed is being happy, being content, and being at peace, secure in Christ. It’s having faith and hope and joy. Not things. Success can be measured by those, but not by stuff. For too long I tried to measure my success by my excess. That didn’t work.
And so I’m downsizing. Whether the reduction is permanent or temporary, I’ve enjoyed it so far. It’s almost unbelievable to me how much MORE blessed I feel for having less. I still have plenty. More than enough. But I’m beginning to wonder if there was something more to Jesus’ words than I’ve realized when he said, ‘”One thing you lack… Go, sell everything you have and give to the poor… Then come, follow me.”‘ Could it be that in all my getting I still felt I needed more because I DID need something more… because I truly needed less?